Let's recap what happened that day....

1) He asked me to accompany him go to the Career Fair... He seldom invite me out one leh... in the pm he said... "Can accompany me go suntec?" which I said ok lor...

2) When I wanted to go home at 11+pm, he asked me to stay overnight at his place.... He said "Come lah accompany me lah" which my heart softened and i agreed

3) When We joked to Bishie bout me being her mummy, he said "Then Bish, u must call me daddy, since Jess is ur mummy"

4) When he joked to his brother's friend that he is 30... he said "We look like couple ma, so he will believe that i'm 30"

5) He asked me "Can I lean on ur body?" then he leaned on my lap for a while...

6) He didn't mind when I leaned my head on his shoulders and I rested my head on his shoulders when I watched "the Nanny"... and when watching do his stuff and alamaking the next day

7) He said "Hmm U never kissed me?" I was stunned and didn't know how to react.. so I gave him a air kiss... I wonder wat will happen if i gave him a real kiss?

Anyway.... I'm surprised that he knows Selena Quintanilla-Perez (she's a legend) too... And we both like her a lot... that day we talked bout her and visited her website together....

And he looks so angelic when he sleeps... aw... my heart was beating so fast that day.... hope on the coming BBQ can get to do more stuff with him.. and hope i can get to spend the long weekend with him too heez....

Okay honey I've updated my blog *Hee Hee*

After the outing on tues...

Wednesday...

Bishie and Kathy were at orchard eating cake.. Bishie was asking me whether I wanted to go... I thought bout it but in the end I took bus 22 home instead of going down to meet them.. On the bus while alamaking I received a call from CYN... then I announced on main that I'm meeting a chio bu for dinner, somehow Sho knew I was meeting CYN lo so li hai *applauds*... then me and CYN went to the Spagheddi at Bedok for dinner... i forgot wat we had ... I had some Creamy Chicken and Soup of the day minestrone soup and vanilla icecream..Overall it's quite nice and I forgot wat CYN ate i only remember it was Penne lol... then we dropped by library a while coz i had to borrow some books then we walked home... hmmm... CYN is a v nice girl to talk with.. I can relate to her a lot and I think her eyes looks like Liu Jia Ling... hmm i wanna see her dog and her brother (whom i heard is handsome) though.. hee hee

Friday...

After work I went to eat dinner with QT honey and Bishie at Secret Recipe Suntec... It was very cold there sia... QT honey and I ate the Chicken Corden Bleu... which is apparently just Chicken Cutlet with Cheese Sausage in it... the taste was like too cheesy to me... and I had the soup... mushroom soup which is quite okie and yoghurt Cheesecake (yummy)... oh ya and lasagne... and a bit of honey's apple crumble brownie... so full sia then QT honey choked on her Americano cheesecake and I tot she vomited out and I was quite shocked for that moment coz I tot honey ate too much liao haha...

After that QT and bishie accompanied me to toilet and we walked to Millenia Walk and used the display laptops at Harvey Norman to go in Alamak (haha we are really Alamak Addicts)... then Bishie and honey went home by bus while I walked to City Hall MRT by myself....

Saturday...

Morning 11plus I woke up and went in to Alamak... when I was thinking about whether to order Pasta Mania or cooking the delicious CQYD noodles when Sho asked me to accompany him go Suntec to the JobsDB career fair... So I said okay lor... QT honey worked till 1pm so I asked her to meet us too... I met Sho at Bedok Interchange then we took MRT down to City Hall and walked to Suntec..The Career fair like nothing de... last year I went too got lotsa stuff and I even got free cotton candy... This year registration alone is so troublesome..... and had to upload resume and dun have free cotton candy... haha

After that we walked to marina square and decided to eat at Cafe Cartel although their soup not nice but their Seafood Platter and cheesecake was quite nice (QT honey still did not get to eat her blueberry cheese cake haha) after that we walked around and passed by a shop where the top glass of the shop broke into pieces (I wonder how it broke sia?) and then QT honey went home while me and Sho went to his house to drink alcohol w bish

After tat we went back to my place and met Sho at Bedok interchange at 5.40pm.. then the 3 of us went down to Lavender to wait for the shuttle bus to city square (but ended up walking halfway and taking the public transport to City Square Mall instead) then met QT for dinner at Long John Silver for dinner and after tat Emme (who almost fly airplane) then we walked to Mustafa (ended up in 2 wrong sections of Mustafa) then Bish, Sho and me sat outside Mustafa while QT honey and Emme went to shop for tidbits for her boyfriend.. then we walked to Emme's tua huay shop... then i blur blur follow them to the bus stop and realised there's no bus for me to take home...

So i had to drag my aching feet to the mrt and took the mrt home... Aw man... it was a torture walking home.. but I survived walking to the beat of rock music forcing myself to walk faster... Hence now my feet r like v sore... dotz...

Today met Bish at bedok interchange... anyway I seems to know more of being an ops than her... lol... Anyway we went to eat maggie mee goreng at the store that claimed to be the branch from Jalan Kayu Prata shop.. it turned out ok la although we were still hungry after eating the mee and ordered one tissue thosai to share... then we sat at the block opposite my house and ate ice cream.. and chit chat.. and I nagged at her a bit.. hope some of my words will go into her brain lol

Tommorrow meeting QT honey, emme and Bish go city square and then to mustafas... then emme wanna go Kommalas and eat... Dotz eat again lol

Anyway I dreamt bout S french kissing me yesterday... hee *blush* Y did i have tat dream wor? Gosh I'm really too infatuated...

I 10 years never play aldy.. totally forgot how to play sia.. therefore I totally sucked at it hee...

I rem 10 years ago I didn't play v well either lol...

After that we ate at Mac and sat there and chit chatted for a while.. then CYN and shared a cab back home... really enjoyed myself tonight... It's my first meeting with CYN tonight and my impression of her is tat at first I'm not that used to her (her eyes are really big and a bit intimidating) but after hanging out with her, she's actually quite fun lah... Some more she lives opp my block.. and I can see her window from my kitchen window hee hee

Hmm... I noticed smthing.. that almost every entry in this blog I will mention S... lol... maybe I'm too infatuated with him... >.<

Hmm... I was thinking about the term "Attention Seeker"... I guess everybody do need some attention ba... even me.. Attention Seekers are hated by a lot of people.. but actually they are the most lonely group of ppl.. coz in their hearts they are actually v insecure and have low self esteem..

Gosh... am I the only one in Alamak that dun hate B? Actually she is quite caring de lah.. I'm like sick for this week and she showed concern for me.. And I feel that it's true concern lor... Somehow i feel that she has Borderline Personality Disorder... shall talk more bout BPD another time.. But I think I've helped her enough.. coz sometimes she dun listen to me or Emme mama...

Maybe I'm too kind? Or I guess pple jus dun see the good side of her ba... But I guess she needs to learn from her mistakes lor....

Just came back from school.. wat a tiring day... but at least today's lesson was with that cute lecturer who likes to talk bout evil stuff.. wahaha...However I was coughing the whole day.. just now even coughed too hard and saw a bit of blood.. oh gosh... but now i'm a bit better.. the cough's syrup making me kinda drowsy though.. but it's quite a nice feeling.. heez..

Yeah tmr going to drink w Cloud and S, this time B is not coming, I can have S all to myself heez.. I dun think S jus treats me as a fren.. well i'm fine w that =) as long as I can be near him I'm already satisfied...

Well TGIF~~ gonna enjoy myself b4 i have to come out w a presentation for class on 30th March for next week~

Well gonna sleep now.... gonna listen to "Dreaming of You" before I sleep.. =)

(Coz i'm dreaming of you tonight~ till tmr, I'll be holding you tight~ and there's nowhere in this world I'd rather be, than here in my room dreaming about you and me~~)

Today in Alamak I blurted out to B that I felt jealous that she held on to S's arms before holding on to mine that day... and she was like so angry... actually I asked her before whether she likes S but she claims she only like S as a friend.. which I dun believe lo the way she talk to him is definitely more than a friend lo... I mean if she likes S she can tell me coz I can't do anything also mah... though I like S for a longer time than her... Well anyway we told her that if she is drunk on 2nd April (the bbq that we're organising), noone would bother bout her... well hopes she learns her lesson wahaha.... Anyway for some unknown reason S is ignoring B, and tat leaves my jealousy kinda settled for a while... hee~

Hmm got fly kite by 3 chatters though (Names shan't be mentioned).. Sho says it's common to be fly kite so i think next time dun invite them liao lor.. Hmm shall ask QT honey to make a list of fly kiters and see who is number 1 ba lol

After drinking we went to PapaSmurf's void deck (QT's friends left aldy) and drank quite a lot...

Barcardi w sprite, long island tea and tiger beer... surprisingly barcardi taste good w sprite mixed w long island tea~ hmm I think i can take alcohol quite well coz i only got a bit high...

Well Bish got so high tat she can't even walk straight... Then all of us had to accompany me to Cheers to get a drink to sober up.. and then we walked to somewhere to take a cab home... then I sent bish to her doorstep and sent Sho home by cab...

Personally I think Bish has drunk too much liao lor... She kept grabbing on to my arm while we were walking... now my arms kinda sore hahah... but hor she's so lucky coz the whole bunch of us took care of her.. She jus dunno how to control herself.. I kept on nagging at her say that cannot keep on drinking non stop must take a break in between for some air la... some more she says she just started drinking this year... of coz she can't hold her alcohol well..

I guess all she needs is some self love ba... but I dun understand why she knows that I like someone but she keeps on spending time with him.. She's like spending more time w him... I know I jus wanna only be good friends w someone but when I know she's w him or when they're playing around.. I can't help feeling jealous.... sigh... doesn't she know the girl code? Tat a girl shouldn't spend so much time w someone that her girl friend likes? I don't think so... Sigh...

First she asked me how old i am then i answered i'm 28 this year lo then she ask me whether i got bf a not, if got then bring home to show her... and she tot that my partner-in-crime S who was at my house the other day is my bf... i told her no la....

I think she finds it v weird tat these few days i've been going out a lot that's y she thinks i have a bf wahaha... anyway i'm 28 liao i'm free to do wat i wan ma...

Now at S's house jus now drinking beer and "lime soda" w b and s, sleeping over at his house tonight.. tmr have to go to the bank and settle my bank loan then go home sleep a while then tmr night meeting alamak chatters to lape chicken at 7pm at amk popeye.. hopes everything goes well~ whee~ Night~

P.S: my blog will be having a major makeover soon~ yeah~

My mood today is like so numb... no emotions at all

Just a bit emotionally tired... Sigh.. how do you heal tired emotions? I wish I knew...

It's been 3 years since he's been gone.. and yet i still miss him... I'm still holding on to a regret that I have to carry for the rest of my life.

For now I only wanna fulfil his only wish when he was alive... And that is to live happily....

When I think of him, I will still cry.. For he's the only guy who loved me the most... I dunno if there would be another guy who would be the same as him... sometimes I give up hope waiting for the one...

But whatever it is... whoever I'm with... I will always be thinking of you...

Yi Hao... I miss you... even though You have been dead for 3 years, you will live in my heart forever...